A LOOK AT LIFE-29

A LOOK AT LIFE-29
BY-SMRUTI RANJAN MOHANTY

If you want to dive deep into life
Its intrinsic beauty and intricacies
Look at me
How solitary I am
In the midst of a crowd
I am all lone
Fighting a lone battle
In a no man's land

When I was born
There was no fanfare
When I will die
It will be another uneventful event
Will never go down
In the annals of history
As something memorable
And glorious

Every moment I die
Every moment I reincarnate
To live life
In the most ignoble way
Under the burden of
Relationships and expectations
I feel suffocated
A sense of deep melancholy
And deep seated antipathy
Hunts me
All of a sudden
I find the spectrum of rainbow
The next door
I forget everything
And get deeply engrossed
In what is happening around

This is the way
We live life
Tend to forget and forgive
Live it minute by minute
Make thousands of compromises
To make life more bearable
In this apparently unbearable world

Is there anyone
Who understands me
Is there anyone
Who accepts me
As I am
Is there anyone
Who feels my feelings
Is there any one
Who loves me without condition
Expecting anything in reciprocation
Or I am just
Deceiving myself all through

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