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 SOMETHING I LOOK AT-14 BY-SMRUTI RANJAN MOHANTY Smile a bit I will return you the moments, once you cherished and longed for. Give me the touch, I will take you to that land of wonders, where you will find none, but me and me only. Give me that feeling, I will give wings to the dreams, once you dreamt but remained unrealised. Get up! never say gone are the days, never say it is all over, or else we will miss the bus once again. You have it in you, I have it in me. Let us search for that lost paradise, and look at life through a pair of young eyes copyright@smruti ranjan 28.5.2015

 SOMETHING I LOOK AT-3 BY-SMRUTI RANJAN MOHANTY  Something we relish  I search for it in the lost paradise, in the solitary confinement of Taj in the tears of Sahajahan, and in all  that is beautiful and scintillating. I search for it in meadows and mountains, in poverty and affluence, in hope and despair It eludes my grasp. It is a feeling, a feeling of completeness, one has after being completely becoming one's forgetting the world around at once A glimpse of it, one can have after emptying oneself, when every beat of the heart throbs for it, every drop of blood flows for it. For the sake of it, one can live and die. It is so fulfilling and enriching, makes life a paradise on earth To have it, one has to have a pair of eyes that only sees it, a loving heart that only feels it, and a simple mind that only reciprocates it. Something, we all relish, but few have it, platonic love is hardly realised. copyright@smrutiranjan21.5.2015

 MY MOTHER-6 Is it so easy to change habits Which have been part of you and your life  Is it possible  to get the heart out of you While still alive?  But I am alive though my heart had been burnt long since  For years I used to ring you twice After reaching home and Before leaving for office  Whenever I was late,   I always got your call There has been no deviation For the last seventeen years  But I am waiting for your ring  Since that night But no ring from your side Have you forgotten me?  Don't you know How horrible I feel  When I do not get you over the phone?  I am sorry my mother There has been no ring from my side either  There have been thundershowers Since you left I know how horrible you felt When I was outside During sun, rain and wind You used to ask each and everyone including me To know every bit of me and my safety  I know how restless you were Till I was safely home Always been by my side In my sorrow and happiness None like you, none can be You know no one can be

 MY MOTHER-5                       ମୋ ବୋଉ Present too much to bear Future not in vision  Past is my only resort  Where lies the beauty of your touch  My life and love with all its colours  My mother! come near Take me in your lap Touch me, touch my body and mind Tell me a story, I will  be in your land of wonder  Don't leave me alone, be with me  I want to  bathe in your love once more I was told  When I was a kid of some months and years  In one side was Yama, Lord of death On the other side you my loving mother The tug of war was for years You made your days and nights speak  Without caring for your bare needs The Lord of death had to run away  And your unmatched love and commitment  Brought me safe from the jaws of death. You were on medicine and surgery With an ailing heart and dwindling brain You had been fighting against multiple ailment  For twenty seven years  You fought like a lioness agaist the tigress  With equal ease and smile on lips In your last battle  For the first

 MY MOTHER-4                   ମୋ ବୋଉ When I was trying to sleep You were fighting for your last breath  No one of your own was with you It was for you a lone battle in the ICU I ask myself why a mother gives birth And for kids lives her whole life with mirth When her kids remain engrossed in their world Hardly find will and time to payback  Your blood pressure was fluctuating You were sinking in the ICU Your senses must be searching for your kids Unfortunately, none of them was around With little efforts we all five  Could have been there Feeling your beats and pulse to the last Despite stringent regulations and corona scare I know if I would have been ill You would have never left me alone Whatever may be the situation Nothing could have stopped you From being with your blood  That is why you are a mother And I am your unworthy son All along you were surrounded with Everything one needs That is no excuse  You were more in need of your kids And most of us were away from you We could o

 MY MOTHER-2          ମୋ ବୋଉ  Minutes and hours  have passed  Since you left this world Where you were my mother I was your erring son The situation has not changed  The same darkness all over No trace of the sun as yet  When I look at your room  Where you recited and let us listen to  Most of the mythologies including  The epics Ramayan and Mahabharat  Among your listeners  I am probably the lone survivor  I see that empty cot Where we had shared so much time So much of love, life and smile  Where you used to sit and sleep  Wherefrom you shower on all of us  Your love and affection  Guidance and concern  Since the last five and a half years You were confined to bed But you were always lively  And full of grace When l met you last  I could never think Your days were numbered And I will lose you, My heaven on earth  forever  Since months I was feeling restless  I used to get up from sleep  And feel a sad melancholy deep within  A fear constantly haunted me As if I was going to lose some

 MY MOTHER-1    ମୋ ବୋଉ  In your funeral pyre Burning my whole world  My love and tears, wishes and ambitions My past, present and future  The dreams and dramas  We shared over the years When you closed your eyes I lost my vision  When you lost your ears I lost my hearing  When you lost your brain I lost my reasoning  The eyes that do not see you The ears which do not hear you The senses which do not feel you Of what use are these? Now I understand What it means being truly orphaned  Losing both the earth and sky  In between which I have been all along I am up against reality  None in front none in the back  None to my right none to the left Life is silently  walking on fire If you can see See in your absence how Sad and pathetic life is How poor I have come In few hours I have become the most  Unfortunate man on earth A begar in fact  I am speechless The poor navigator  In the boisterous sea  Silently watching the boat  Sinking in the deep-sea And I am going deep down  In the dark abys